I know I haven’t written on here in a while and I’m sorry about that. During this time, a lot has happened and I’m sure most of you have seen the significant amount of changes made to my repositories in the past few months. I have been working a lot more to work on these projects and it’s really been helping with improving my mood and keeping my brain active. I’m still keeping with public domain for the most part, as for some projects I like to maintain stricter usage guidelines.

I have launched my own email service (completely free!) over at pontusmail.org which has been really exciting for me. It’s code is being hosted over at GitHub. This project has been very fast-paced although has taught me some very useful skills. Version three of my website, aidxnCC, which is also in the public domain on GitHub, has taught me all about NextJS, which I like a lot now. I have never seen such speed and this is the first time I am accepting Vercel into my life.

Next, I am being required to do service hours. 10 hours actually. They are the worst things in the world. Why? I’m not a “bullshit volunteer.” I have worked on Wikipedia for at least forty hours at least, which would be enough for four years of high school. However, I must do extra hours, which I have been forgetting to log because that’s not the point of volunteering. If I have to do some huge process to log these hours, what are we really doing? It’s about actually helping people, not creating some “brag sheet,” like the rest of America participates in.

I have been fed up with how many fake people there are in this world. We do not actually care about doing good, it’s about finding out how you can benefit from helping others. It is extremely hard to find people with values these days.

However, I have been buying a lot of domains recently. In fact, I’ve bought three just the past two days combined. I’m very excited for buying one specific domain, which will be announced soon, which I had to wait for. This domain is very close to my heart, in an infamous way. Thus, I will be happy to own this one because I can finally share my story and other people’s stories. I’ll give you a hint: abuser. And the people who are involved know exactly who they are and what they did. This is aimed to be a more educational project than anything, as I think spreading the word about this type of abuse would be quite useful. Especially the location where the project exists. All to be revealed soon.

In terms of school, I have fallen a bit behind though this is going to improve. I always try to do my hardest, even when nobody is really watching or caring. My GitHub is where my true self shines, though. Sadly, this has no value to a school which seems to be more about training conformity then actual education.

Life still feels like it’s dragging be behind, although I keep pushing back and pushing through. I am slowly healing. It’s a slow process, especially having to do everything on my own, but I get through. I’m always happy to have things like my blog, my GitHub and my devices to keep me distracted from the sadness my brain wants me to focus on. Music has been invaluable these days, too.

I hope you, the reader, are doing well. I’ve seen so many people who aren’t doing well, so just know you aren’t alone if you aren’t doing well. We all have bad times in our lives and welcome to the world, I guess. I wish there was a better answer than this. Either way, I am so happy to be in this community, especially my friends over on Telegram. Keep safe, everyone!